the lonely

2 a.m., where do I begin?

Crying off my face again

The silent sounds of loneliness

Wants to follow me to bed

I'm a ghost of a girl that I want to be most

I'm the shell of a girl that I used to know well

Dancing slowly in an empty room

Can the lonely take the place of you?

I sing myself a quiet lullaby

Let you go and let the lonely in to take my heart again

Too afraid to go inside

For the pain of one more loveless night

But the loneliness will stay with me

And hold me 'til I fall asleep

I'm a ghost of a girl that I want to be most

I'm the shell of a girl that I used to know well

Dancing slowly in an empty room

Can the lonely take the place of you?

I sing myself a quiet lullaby

Let you go and let the lonely in to take my heart again

Broken pieces of

A barely breathing story

Where there once was love

Now there's only me and the lonely

Dancing slowly in an empty room

Can the lonely take the place of you?

I sing myself a quiet lullaby

Let you go and let the lonely in to take my heart again

 Christina Perri - The Lonely   Lyrics | MetroLyrics 

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check out my last accessory ... specs. *sigh*

february 26, 2014 - march 9, 2014

(yup. i lost  my glasses. i know, i'm stupid.) 

spoiled rotten :-)

i haven't gotten over the gift yet :) 

you see not only is it because of someone's generosity, but the effort. and i'm not talking about the effort of "securing" the gift with scotch tape.

it would've been easy to just give the device to me. but no, my friend r isn't like that. 

the e-reader comes with 90 pre-loaded e-books. 

all from her own digital collection and some she downloaded for me. 

that's what makes it all the more special. the effort and time put into the gift. 

thank you r. remember, you can "ignore" me on my next name day too. :)  :)  :)

spoiled

i am a spoiled brat. i'm spoiled by family and friends. spoiled and surprised. wonderfully surprised.

i love to read. i'm not a voracious reader by common standards, but i do love to read. i no longer have hundreds of books (thanks to habagat 2012) and i've really stopped buying books but i still love to read. 

fast forward to this weekend when i met up with one of my closest friends, r. we didn't meet before or right after my birthday. before saturday, she made sure we'd meet - texting and confirming every now and then.

we had our first coffee of the day, then after apologizing for the 'silence' on my name day, she hands me a gift bag. 

my first thought, "it's a bit heavy"

second thought, "you practically sealed it with a roll of tape"

third thought while taking off the tape "there's a box"

after opening half of the bag "oh ..."

after opening it all the way and putting my hand in the bag "OH MY GOD!"

i've finished "percy jackson the lightning thief" and started neil gaiman's "ocean at the end of the lane."

thank you r. thank you ❤

alam na ... 😊

okay, it's not really my color combination but i'm trying something out from the wonderful website canva. go on, create your own account. :)

the message however, is spot on. argh!

19Feb treats, gifts, and 'eats'

forty 'frickin' four

yep, sometimes i cuss too. but it didn't come out because of anger, exasperation or annoyance. it was more like a "disbelief cuss." :)

today is my new year - i really celebrate it on my birthday, not just january 1st. i try to take stock of things, i try to come up with grandiose, elaborate, well thought-out plans, and i try to also include a plan to follow-through.

try is the operative word.

it used to be easy. of course, 20, 25, 30 years are relatively easy to review. but when i hit my middle-age, it was like a curriculum vitae eight pages longer than it should be, and that just got exhausting. :)

so how would i review my past 44 years? i don't know.

maybe i should just look towards the future. yeah, everyone says you can't do anything about the past because the opportunity for you to do something about it has passed. the future however, is still yours for the taking. 

even for someone like me who never has a long-term plan, BELIEVING the future will be infinitely better than my past sounds like a good plan. 

but i will look back with gratitude for everything and everyone who has made the first half of my life wonderful and beautiful. 

friends who have been there when i needed a shoulder to cry on, a partner-in-crime, travel buddy, cinema buddy, and food tripping pal.

for my family who've been very patient with me, loving, caring, and supportive of what i've done, may they be successes or failures.

for a Father who unconditionally loves, protects, guides, and cares for me. it may take me longer than expected to be what you want me to be, but You have said that you'll meet me wherever i am. may i never forget to just BELIEVE.

thank you everyone for the first half. i'll see you in the second half. 

for those who have yet to play a role in the second part, i hope you'll find it interesting enough to stay and grow with me. welcome to my life, my balanced insanity.

because valentine's  ❤

"starting over again"

 

sorry, i'm not going to talk about papa p & toni 😜 this is about my first post after one of my "now you see me, now you don't" phases.

what a beautiful post after my hibernation 😊 thank you to my goF family 💓